I've come to realize....

I’ve come to realize that my body image is a tad dismorphic. I'm probably more comfortable with myself than I should be. I think it's because I swear I don't look as fat in the mirror as I do when I see myself in pictures. I'm come to accept that I've had two babies and weigh much more than I used to and m body shape will most likely never go back to what is what pre-baby. I am ok with that today!

I’ve come to realize that my job is being the best mother I can be to my two wonderful children and that's the more important job I could have. I may not make any money but I get so much more out of staying at home with them and it's worth more than any money I could earn. My children are my life, without them I don't know what I would do and I know that I would not be the person I am today.
I’ve come to realize that when I’m driving I am doing one of my least favorite things. I have always said that one day I want to have enough money so that I can pay someone to drive me around. I do not like to drive. However, I do enjoy blaring the radio and singing at the top of my lungs like I'm the best singer in the world and I can't do that if I'm not driving!
I’ve come to realize that I need more "me" time. I can't remember the last time I did anything for myself. I want to be able to do whatever I want for just one day ever now and them so I don't get burnt out on always doing everything for everyone else.
I’ve come to realize that I have lost the days of irresponsibility. They will never be found again! I guess I'm ok with it since growing up and becoming responsible is part of life! However growing up and being responsible are two different things because I sure do know a bunch of people who are responsible but definitely aren't grown up!
I’ve come to realize that I hate when I ask a certain someone to do something and he takes so long to get to it that I might as well have done it myself. Well, actually I normally do end up doing it. Take today for example: Certain someone was playing his video game when I asked him to get Olivia's shower ready. I was in the middle of cooking dinner but he surely did take 20 minutes to pause the game and go start her shower. Then while the kids and I were making dinner, he was still playing his game. I asked him to get Olivia some more food since I had just sat down and he just ignored me completely! I ended up doing it anyway!
I’ve come to realize that if I’m drunk someone must be keeping both my children so that Frank and I could go out. It also means that I drank quicker than Frank because he always seems to get drunk before I do then I have to be the "responsible one."
I’ve come to realize that money doesn't last long. As soo as we get it, we have to turn around and pay bills. Oh well!
I’ve come to realize that certain people will never change no matter how much you hope that they will. I've grown up and put the days full of high schoolish drama behind me but most people I know have not! I've also come to realize that it's really hard to find those people that will be great longtime friends.
I’ve come to realize that I’ll always remember the day of the Sofa Super Store fire..June 17, 2007. Frank and I were right by there when it started and we had no idea how bad it would turn out! We lost 9 brave firefighters that night. My dad is a firefighter and he was there that night. He was there to pull out those men who lost their lives trying to save others. I am thankful that he was there to help but even more thankful that he made it out alive!
I’ve come to realize that my sibling(s) and I are not as close as we should be. My sister, Heather, recently moved far away and my half sister, Kellen, I just don't see enough. Heather and I had a close relationship until she moved away and one day, I hope that it can be as close as it was before the move. Kellen has grown into a little teenager with a witty sense of humor and a love for anything Jonas Brothers and Demi Lovato. She even has fan pages for them that she runs!
I’ve come to realize that my mom and I will always have our ups and downs but we'll always be there for each other. She loves me and I love her, isn't that what's most important in the end anyway?
I’ve come to realize that my cell phone needs to be upgraded to something way more hi-tech and fancy! I also feel lost without it!
I’ve come to realize that when I woke up this morning, I had only been asleep for 5 hours which is not enough for me to function on. I also realized that when I woke up this morning that Olivia only has 8 more days of school which mean only 8 more days of waking up early! I am thankful both of my kiddos like to sleep in when they can! 
I’ve come to realize that last night before I went to sleep, I was sucked into the computer for way too long! We just got our computer back fixed after it breaking in January. Do you know how hard it is to not be able to just get on and check your email real quick when you want? I was lost with it out too! 
I’ve come to realize that right now I am exhausted after a long day with very little sleep, frustrated with my husband but excited to see the Grey's Anatomy finale!
I’ve come to realize that my dad is being the best dad he knows how to be. Its not the best but he's trying! I know one day he learn how to be the dad I've always hoped he would be. However I do appreciate him for being a firefighter for so long and am thankful that nothing bad ever happened to him!
I’ve come to realize that when I get on Facebook, I spend way to much time on it! It's so easy to get sucked in looking at what everyone is up to or the latest picture they've added. Being without a computer at home for so long though has made it a little easier for me to not spend so much time on it!
I’ve come to realize that today is one week before my baby girl graduates from kindergarten. Next year, Livi will be in first grade and I can hardly believe it. She's grown up too fast into a beautiful and smart little girl! Besides, I'm not old enough to have a child going into first grade!
I’ve come to realize that tomorrow is Friday! I like Fridays! 
I’ve come to realize that I really want to have our house on the market and sold quickly so that we can get a house with a yard. This is something we have been working on but we suffer from TMSS (Too Much Stuff Syndrome) We've gotten rid of so much already but it surely feels like its a never ended process!
I’ve come to realize that the person mostly likely to repost this is probably no one. I know I only have 3 followers but I enjoy blogging even if no one reads it! 
I’ve come to realize that life is always full of the unexpected. From one day to the next, I never know what will happen or what funny thing Olivia say or Owen will do! 
I’ve come to realize that this weekend should be fun. Owen and I have Josh's first birthday party to go to and I want to make some floor pillows for the kids playroom!
I’ve realized the best music to listen to when I am upset is Boyz II Men. I know it's totally old school but I love me some Boyz II Men. "Although we've come to the end of the road, still I cant let go. Its unnatural. You belong to me, I belong to you"
I've come to realize that my friends, my true friends, are few! It's so hard to
find real friends that won't talk about you behind your bad, get offended by your advice or act like their still in high school! With real friends, you can go months without talking or seeing each other but then pick right up where you left off like no time has passed at all! I am grateful for the few true friends I have!

I’ve come to realize that this year has gone by way to fast! Owen turned 1, learnen to walk and has become an adventuresome mischief maker. Olivia is graduating from 5 year old kindergarten, learned to tie her shoe in a day and has become a great reader!
I’ve come to realize that my husband is my best friend and one of the loves of my life (the other two are Olivia and Owen). Even though we have our ups and downs, I know he loves me like no one else does. He's always there for me and he encourages me in all that I do. He's a great stepdad to my daughter, a wonderful father to our son and a understanding supporter who lets me be lucky enough to stay home with the kids!
I’ve come to realize that maybe I should get a paying job outside of the house so that I can meet other people that aren't necessarily moms and start contributing to the household!
I’ve come to realize that I love the life that I have. A wonderful husband, two beautiful children, a house that we can call our own, and the means to keep it! What else could I ask for!
I’ve come to realize that I don’t understand why some people worry about all the petty stuff. There's so much more to life than the petty stuff to worry about.  
I’ve come to realize my past has made me who I am and I wouldn't change one part of it!
I’ve come to realize that parties that I attend are all childrens birthday parties. Wild crazy drunken parties are a thing of the past but I'm ok with that!
I’ve come to realize that my life is full of love, support, and blessing..lots of blessings!